My funny guides

They make me sad when they're not here
They make me angry sometimes when they're not around
and I felt the pain of their absence
and sometimes they make me cry

My poor human experience
I call for them
raw emotions and desperate

But when they're around and they're with me
I feel happy
Sometimes they don't answer my questions
and that makes me impatient and angry

And then I realized they ignore my questions
not because they don't care
but because their energy come with a mission
to help me remember
and sometimes I believe it's a learning experience
for them too to deal with their loved one
who lived a life with them
and unable to remember

I can only pray for your patience

and now I learn to stay quiet and listen
I wish they stay with me and chat with me
like normal human beings do
but I learn this is our of life
they stay for a while
to help me remember
when I'm alone to think to my thoughts

I'm the lone princess looking for her lover
I am the grandchild that kept the secret of her illness
I am the mother who seeks her children to be with her always

what is the story of my soul's journey?
That's what I wanted to know.
I wanted to know the secret of your joy and your sorrow
your pain and your loss
your mistakes and your learning
your humility and humbleness
your sadness and gladness
your quirkiness and humor
so that I can imagine stories to tell
when I get lost in the dark
and the puzzle piece you gave me
warms my soul

Because if I have one wish right now
I want to be able to feel the love
that you call Home.