My star girl

You said you're in love with me
and to my surprise and delight
I feel the same
Many questions popped in my mind
coming from my insecurity and uncertainity,
"I hope I do not err in my lust for you"
"I hope I do not displease you"
"What do you possibility see in me?'
"What can I do for you?"
"How on Earth did I missed the obvious signs?"
And, "Well, of course, I feel the same but not with an intensity like this."

You are a girl of the stars
and to fit you in with me
my limited human capacity
is underrated and humble
I wonder about you
because one does not go
simply, recklessly, hopelessy
be in love and say, "I'm going to capture you and make you mine"
Though that's what I'm about to do the next time
we cross the bridge and meet
and defy the laws of fate and gravity

I look back at my memories
ghost of my old wounds
many were self-inflicted
and I'm a wound up beaten toy soldier
who is slowly learning the lessons of yestersday
Such painful things, dark things,
but you show me the light and the color
and beauty and joy and laughter
that is within your soul

was it worth it to struggle up the mountain
and up there to my shock
you were waiting for me for all of this time?
Damn, God must have given you to me
because I think I'll never met another woman
like you for loving me for being just me
because you're worth the wait.

I thought love is easy, but it is complicated
you're there
I'm here
and what's seperates us is an equation of
the vastness of space, stars, physics,
distance, and timing

So, when you're not here
I can only imagine how beautiful you are
and the softness and warmth of your voice, your touch,
and your curves
and the things I would like to do to you
the way lovers do
and when that time comes
you won't doubt me anymore

Only a woman of great loveliness such as yourself
can inspire this poor hopeless poet
to desire and regret
and toss and turn in bed
with wild imaginings and fantasies
your absence and your color

But for now
I'll be a good girl
and accept that
I have to
fucking
wait.

Learning
to fall
and be in love with you.

I love you, my precious star girl.